Borrowed Time

::an uncertain and usually uncontrolled postponement of something inevitable.

Borrowed time

Sometimes we feel as if we might be living on borrowed time. Stuck, suspended, waiting for … something.

It’s difficult, I think, for graduates lately. We’ve been given all of these expectations about what to expect when we finally finish our education. We’ve been told that if we finish with a great grade, if we gain enough work experience, do enough extra curricular activities, then landing our dream job will come naturally.

We come into the world with a (very expensive) piece of paper, declaring that we’re capable, we can be adults now. Things will just be there, waiting for us to take them. But unfortunately, it’s just not that simple. Things don’t wait for you, and you can’t wait for them. And that becomes a disappointment – but it really shouldn’t be.

Of course, some people know what they want, and they will do anything to achieve their goals, and that’s great and they’re sure to get there. But it’s also completely normal to not know what we want to do with our lives just yet.

Since graduating 10 months ago (wow), I have applied for countless ‘dream jobs’. Jobs I thought would be the kick start to my ‘career’ – jobs in magazines, newspapers, for websites, and media companies. Because a job in publishing seems like the natural next step, for an English graduate who will read anything she can get her hands on.

But, needless to say, I didn’t get an interview for even one of these jobs. And that’s because I don’t actually think any of them excited me all that much – and as much as you try, that shows in your application.

“Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life.
The most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives
Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don’t.” – Baz Lurhman, Everybody’s Free to Wear Sunscreen

As soon as I broadened my horizons, and started applying for jobs outside of my comfort zone, outside of my realm of obvious experience, I started getting call backs, and invited to interviews. These jobs scared and excited me, because I love to learn new things, and I love to challenge myself.

I now work in a job I wouldn’t have even considered applying for this time last year. Doing something I never would have imagined I’d be able to do. And I really love it. I’m challenged every day and my sense of responsibility both within my team and within the company is growing as fast as my confidence.

I still love to read, and I still love to write, and I will continue to do these things as long as they excite me.

I am not living on borrowed time, none of us are. I am living now, and I am very, very happy about that.

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7 thoughts on “Borrowed Time

  1. I really love your perspective on today’s prompt. We do have different responses but I get what you’re saying – make your life the way you want it to be and step out of that which makes you comfortable. Honestly, that’s how positive results are achieved (as you’ve proven)!
    I’m quite happy and proud that you were able to find a job where you are challenged and are happy at. Writers, the mind of writers, have to have that challenge or boredom begins and ..that’s just not good for anyone.

    Wonderfully written post and I’ll be following you. Can’t wait to see what you write next!

    Have a fantastic Sunday and take care.

    ~Susan

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  2. I’m glad you have the foresight to realize that things just doesn’t come to you without setting a goal and going out to work towards that goal. Yes, one need to broaden their horizons, as you discovered it may lead to an opportunity.But most of all enjoy and have fun doing what you do during this exciting time of your life….

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  3. Congratulations on your educational achievement! It’s hard as a parent to watch as the education system perpetuate the ideas you have discovered. Higher education is wonderful, but so is the education of real life experiences.
    For our family, that means we don’t push our children with the daunting question, “What do you want to be?”, instead we ask “Who do you want to be?”. The meaning between the simple exchange of what and who can make such a difference. You see we don’t care what they want to be, but we do care about who they become as a person. Each of our girls (now aged 16, 20 and 22) were required to have a job by age 13. It set them up for the reality of life – nothing is ever handed to you. With that they learned to push outside of comfort zones, learned to save and built a solid foundation to prepare them for time away from home.
    I’m glad to see you made that step. To move outside of the plan, and into a life of satisfaction.

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  4. Good writing Vicky. It’s easy(ish) to get sucked it the media world view of what you should be doing. In my book, and experience, take a little side step off the main route and you’ll find new challenges and new perspective s that allow you to be you and shine through. Stay open to new opportunities and don’t worry about not always knowing what is round the next corner. Life doesn’t always follow a plan.😄

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